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Room of my dreams :iconannie-bertram:Annie-Bertram 366 49
but then i remembered: my heart is a trickster.
it is really too bad that anxiety finds me when my eyes catch you, on nights when the storm in my belly is calmest; i told her to wait for me in the back of my mind, but she mistook you for the next block.
i want to die and be reborn as the press of a flower against your wrist, or maybe the sweet sun, kicking its shadowy feet while sitting on your doe-lashes. i think i find peace with the coral and the stingrays, floating inches above the sea floor and losing myself in kelp strands - kelp may indeed be the color of my eyes in my dreams (i'll never know because my mind, it doesn't dream in color);
or maybe i find serenity in the tremble of your voice as you speak to me in my loneliest nightmares.
i wish you knew that you still have a seat in the ruling chambers of my shattered heart.
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Herbstbegrau :iconarrhart:ArrHart 80 3
to wake the dead.
would it be terribly insensitive
for me to say “good morning”
in a cemetery?
the sun lifts up slowly,
and the dead sleep in late,
as usual.
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lalok rabah :iconstyvop:styvop 544 18 Koi :iconlunafeles:LunaFeles 1,700 81 Sand Storm :iconvitaly-sokol:Vitaly-Sokol 741 51
i fell in love with you
in a way only fools can. 
in the way a drunkard 
kisses the bottom of the bottle 
or my father tongues the last pill 
of his countless clandestine bottles
before selling his soul to the refill line,
holding his own hands
around his orange heart.
i loved you,
until it burned my throat crosshatch raw.
love-sick, they call it, 
me, in the light of the refrigerator,
all my love-making in grocery bags
smeared across the tile, glossine
with vomit, saliva, blood 
i loved you, 
the brain-buzzing
dizzy with desire, 
feeling you, 
bring me to my highest
and shaking to my knees 
on bathroom tiles,
dirty ditches,
hospital floors
i loved you,
to my lowest,
sickest, sick of you,
for you, for the sake
of sincerity, a grip 
that never wavers, 
a chokehold 
to both my stomach and heart
in the way my father is that drunkard,
that orange heart,
that man eclipsed
by the shadows of his
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Mature content
nude :iconmartasyrko:MartaSyrko 270 24
Fading eyelashes
In his heart of hearts,
the husband knew she would always fear
the home,
would always fear
retiring from the desk in charge,
would always be
the nun who would excommunicate
all popes and priests,
-the heretical demons!-
who would grow up to gush
at her friends who married
blond, clear looking foreigners
-while she is stuck in her
cold too cold hot too hot
rainy too rainy country
He forgot to tell
his secretary
to not answer his
home phone
but at least he
lost himself in another city
in another job
other children
another time
unshackled of everything
unclouded of everything
perhaps he is lounging
in the mountains
with his new children
to go and get some
fresh air
while my left eye
is fogging
like the eyes
of my old aunts
the rotten grandparents
or the memory
of a woman
who desperately
wants to build
a sentence in English
a life
not her own
to her whim and fancy
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Mature content
with respect to Yoga :icondanhecho:DanHecho 347 7
Untitled :iconhuhahohi:huhahohi 399 15 those dreams, :iconuchuubranko:uchuubranko 380 29 Namo :icondapicture:Dapicture 110 7 collision :iconsea-of-ice:Sea-of-Ice 19 3
Mature content
Your Chair :iconjennakellen:JennaKellen 125 10


310 deviations
if I ever show you
these marks
and ugly scars
it would only hurt more,
my heart would sink
deeper down
under the dead(ly) weight
of the words


(to me your name sounds like Battle)
Hi ! first writing .. actually I'm not totally satisfied with it but I wanted to give it a try 
Any remark or help is welcome (english isn't my mother tongue so there are probably some errors)


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hi !
see my favourites (:


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oviedomedina Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017
Thank you for the watch!
olivia0171 Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2017
you're welcome :)
oviedomedina Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2017
Thank you for the favorite :)
olivia0171 Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017
My pleasure ! Huggle! Heart 
SilverInkblot Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for the devWatch :D
olivia0171 Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2017
my pleasure Huggle! 
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Tout le plaisir est pour moi Huggle! 
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Elena many many thanks for the fave ads :glomp:
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